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Title: Road Trip
Rating: PG
Notes: Takes place in 1992.
Summary: Peter calls Will with a proposal.

"Hey, when are you going home?"

"End of the week," Will told his friend. He switched the phone to the other ear. "Why?"

"We should take a road trip."

"Peter, I am not driving from here to Hartford."

Peter laughed. "Oh, come on, Will. I can fly out to Athens, then we can rent a car and drive back to Hartford."

"Why can't I just see you when I get home? And why would you want to fly from California to Georgia and then drive to Connecticut?"

There was a long drawn out sigh before Peter spoke. "Will, you're my best friend. Since we started school, I haven't gotten a chance to really see you. I was hoping to spend some quality time with you before our spring break actually started."

Will smiled at his friend's explanation. "You really miss me that much?"

"Yep."

"I miss you, too," Will admitted softly. "But couldn't we just make plans to meet up in Hartford?"

"Will, we promised to do that for our last break, but both of us were way too busy. Plus, I know your dad doesn't want you spending time with me."

"He doesn't say that."

"You don't have to lie for him." Peter's voice was soft. "I know he doesn't like me."

Will was quiet for a few moments. He knew that his father would have a fit if he and Peter took a road trip home together. As he thought about it, though, he found himself not really caring about what his father would say. Peter was his best friend in the world, and if he wanted to take a road trip with him, Will knew he really shouldn't say no.

"Okay," Will finally said. "I'll do it."

"Great! Will, it'll be so much fun, I promise. We'll take some back roads and really see the country. We could totally stretch it out, maybe take three or four days to do it instead of two."

"What should I tell my dad?"

"Tell him the truth. You feel like seeing this great country of ours and you want to spread your wings a little. He'll eat it up."

Will laughed at how well Peter seemed to know his dad. "You're right. He'd wonder what happened to me this semester."

"Just make sure you don't tell him I'll be with you."

"Pete, I don't--"

"If your dad knew that you were spending a few days alone in a car with the fag, he'd kill you." There wasn't any humor in Peter's voice when he said it, and Will was quiet for a few moments. His father always accused him of doing things with Peter, and it wasn't until he was much older that he realized exactly what his dad was implying. Just thinking about it now made him blush. If his dad knew about that night he and Peter had gotten drunk and stupid...

"Okay, I won't tell him," Will said softly.

"There's my champ."

"Thanks, Pete. You're... You really are a great friend."

"Don't get sappy on me," Peter teased him. "There'll be plenty of time for male bonding on the trip. I'll see you soon, 'kay?"

When Will hung up the phone, he couldn't wait to tell his dad that he'd be driving home instead of flying as usual. He hoped that maybe the old man would give him a break and actually be proud of him the way Peter seemed to think he would.

*~*~*~
Allstar - Smash Mouth

Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me
I aint the sharpest tool in the shed
She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her thumb
In the shape of an l on her forehead
Well the years start coming and they dont stop coming
Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running
Didnt make sense not to live for fun
Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
So much to do so much to see
So whats wrong with taking the back streets
Youll never know if you dont go
Youll never shine if you dont glow
Hey now youre an all star get your game on, go play
Hey now youre a rock star get the show on get paid
And all that glitters is gold
Only shooting stars break the mold
Its a cool place and they say it gets colder
Youre bundled up now but wait til you get older
But the meteor men beg to differ
Judging by the hole in the satellite picture
The ice we skate is getting pretty thin
The waters getting warm so you might as well swim
My worlds on fire how about yours
Thats the way I like it and I never get bored
Chorus
Chorus
Somebody once asked could I spare some change for gas
I need to get myself away from this place
I said yep what a concept
I could use a little fuel myself
And we could all use a little change
Well the years start coming and they dont stop coming
Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running
Didnt make sense not to live for fun
Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb
So much to do so much to see
So whats wrong with taking the back streets
Youll never know if you dont go
Youll never shine if you dont glow
Chorus

Title: Things Change
Word Count: 1850
Rating: R
Summary: Will and Peter realize that their friendship has changed because of Will's new relationship.

( Things Change )

Title: Don't Look Back
Word Count: 274
Rating: G
Summary: Will and Kevin in a teeny nutshell.

It was official. Kevin had swept him off his feet. Despite his friends' doubts about how quickly the two of them were moving, Will had been positive that this was the one. Kevin was the man he'd been waiting for all his life and Will was utterly consumed by him. Now that he'd found his perfect man, he'd never want to let him go. Besides, hadn't Will always said that life was too short to not take chances and go after what you want?

The honeymoon lasted three months, and then the signs began. According to some, the signs were there when Will moved into Kevin's place after a month, but these were signs that Will would actually see and acknowledge for himself. It started out with teasing comments. Will would play along, but Kevin's words always stung a little more than anything Will would say to him. Then, Kevin would take it upon himself to punish Will as if he were a child who'd disobeyed his parents. Soon, Will was isolated from his friends, and the only person he ever saw was Kevin. Unfortunately, Kevin also seemed to resent Will being around all the time. It was confusing for Will to be so cut off from other people and live with a man who complained about him being around too much.

The break up was brutal, but Will escaped with injuries that would heal in time and a sense of pride that he had made the choice to get out while the getting was good. The second he walked out the door and left Kevin behind him, he knew he'd never look back.

It's about life...
It's about fun...

I hate you
I love you
I just can't remember to forget you
Who are you?
I need you
You make me feel alive
I die
So high
I'm crawling on ground and
I found I can't fly

One of these days it's all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy maybe whatever
What's it all about?
It's about life
It's about fun
It's over before it has begun
It's about you
It's about me
It's about everything between
And I say
I say good bye to you
I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind

It's simple, confusing
The truth is
I'm winning, but I'm losing
I'm grinning
And pushing
Won't do me any good
It could
It should
I'm honest tell myself that the truth is I lied

One of these days it's all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think it sounds crazy maybe whatever
What it's all about?
It's about life
It's about fun
It's over before it has begun
It's about you
It's about me
It's about everything between
And I say
I say good bye to you
I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind.

Time is creeping behind me
Surrounding around me
Waiting the words so desperately
Now, give me a reason
That I can believe in
Tell me something you can't rewind

One of these days it's all comes to together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think it sounds crazy maybe whatever
What it's all about?
It's about life
It's about fun
It's over before it has begun
It's about you
It's about me
It's about everything between
And I say
I say good bye to you
I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind.

(It's about life)
(It's about fun)
(It's about you)
(It's about me)

It's about you
(It's about life)
(It's about fun)
(It's about you)
(It's about me)
And I say
I say good bye to you
I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind.

Title: No Regrets
Word Count: 625
Rating: PG
Summary: After confessing his feelings for Orlando to his mother, Will stays awake doing some thinking.

Will couldn't sleep. The conversation he'd had with his mother had left him a little confused about what he was doing. On the one hand, he knew that she was right to be concerned. Orlando was dealing with a brutal loss and might have been more susceptible to someone being kind to him at a time when he needed it the most. Perhaps she was right to cast Will in the role of villain. Besides that, Will was living with someone and shouldn't have already been having feelings for another man. He should have been content with friendship, to not let his mind fixate on how much he wanted Orlando. He had no right to him. Will could see it on his mother's face when he'd told her. She might have eventually said that everything was all right, but Will knew better. His mother was judging him. She was judging the both of them. As far as she was concerned, Orlando still belonged to his dead wife and baby and Will was intruding. Even worse, Will feared she might have thought that Orlando hadn't spent enough time mourning his loss. As if she thought there was a standard time for someone to wallow in their misery before they took a tentative step toward finding some comfort from someone more than willing to give it.

Will gently stroked Orlando's cheek as he watched him sleep. With all the concerns he had, he couldn't bring himself to regret anything. He was aware how some might see him - an opportunist, dishonorable, selfish. He didn't care about that, though. What concerned him the most was the way people would look at Orlando for what he was doing. People could be cruel, judgmental and intolerant, all too happy to stand on the sidelines and dictate. But they had no clue. That instantly made Will protective of Orlando; keeping those people at bay becoming a priority.

What he couldn't keep at bay, though, were his own insecurities. What if they were doing the wrong thing? What if something horrible happened to show Will that he really was guilty of some horrible transgression? What then? Or, what if hell's fury rained down on Orlando's head because he hadn't shut himself off from the world for god knows how long people thought he should? It wasn't as though the two of them acted as if Orlando had never been married, Will reasoned. Orli had made it very clear just how much he missed his wife and how torn up he felt without her. The baby... Well, Orli couldn't even speak about the baby. Will still felt terrible that his best friend had made a comment in passing about children that Will knew had cut Orlando to the quick.

What made all of this harder - his mother's chastisement, his worry about how things could possibly appear to outsiders - was the fact that Will knew that Orli wasn't a cruel or vindictive man. In the short time they'd known each other, Will had found himself amazed time and time again by Orlando's kindness and beautiful, generous spirit. Despite the pain of his loss, he was still able to open his heart and display a compassion and understanding Will hadn't ever quite seen before. Will felt incredibly lucky to have Orli in his life, and he knew that no matter what anyone ever thought about them, Will would always treasure the moment Orli entered his life.

Sighing softly, Will snuggled up to Orlando and put a protective arm around him. He would try to sleep since they had a long day ahead of them. If he did manage to fall asleep, he knew what he would dream about. Smiling, he closed his eyes.

[Spoken]
Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
All the other times

We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

Title: Starting Over
Word Count: 347
Rating: PG
Summary: In a new city, Will evaluates his current situation.

The divorce was final. Will could wrap his head around that fact just fine. Talia was better off without him, and he was better off without the accusatory looks and constant reminders of his infidelity.

He and Peter had decided that being the best of friends would work better than being in a romantic relationship. That's what he was still having trouble accepting. The man he'd left his wife for wasn't going to be the man with whom he'd grow old. How the hell had that happened? Oh yeah, he thought. I opened my big mouth and told him I didn't want to risk losing him as a friend if we started to hate each other as lovers. Brilliant.

Surrounded by boxes, sitting on the floor in his new living room, Will wondered if he'd ever get used to the idea of being alone. For the rest of your life. He shuddered at the thought and quickly got to his feet. There was a bottle of wine in the kitchen, and he'd decided he was going to wallow in his misery with the help of a nice merlot.

By the time the bottle was half empty, Will had begun to form a life plan. He was now in Seattle, thousands of miles from the city where he was born and raised. He was thousands of miles from his friends, his family and everything familiar. Eventually, he would make new friends and get to know his surroundings, but anyone he could love and grow to think of as family would be lost to him. He'd essentially doomed himself to a life of heartbreaking, aching loneliness by giving up Peter. Ruining his marriage would mean a future of nothing but misery when it came to relationships. He deserved it.

He eyed the bottle of wine and poured himself another glass. In a few more minutes, he wouldn't care about anything but crawling into his cold, empty bed and falling asleep curled up next to absolutely no one.

Raising his glass to the empty condo, he smiled sadly. "Welcome home."

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you,
comfort and care for you?
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely
life can be lived
life can be loved
Alone.