
I'm sorry I haven't replied to anyone who commented on my last journal entry, but I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. Not only because of what's been said, but because of the support. I'm used to Peter and Mom being the ones who have my back when I'm in a pinch, but to know that you guys are concerned enough to try and knock some sense into me means a lot. I don't want to get sappy, but... Who am I kidding? I'm Mister Sap. I'll just say that I feel really lucky to have you guys as my friends, and you mean a lot to me.
I really did think that I had everything under control and it would be all right. But I wasn't thinking of the consequences when it comes to Kevin. The last thing I want to do is jeopardize our relationship for some damn job. I'm just not quite sure how to tell him what Alex has been doing. Kevin is a gentle, laidback, patient man, but he does have a temper when it comes to anyone victimizing someone else. At work, he can't act on his temper, so I guess that drive makes him a good cop. But, I don't know what would happen when he's not at work. I don't know if he can rein it in if he's not at work and if it's... Well, if I'm the victim.
He loves me and he wants to protect me. And I love him and want to protect him, too.
I have to think of the best way to handle this. I need time.