Um...

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If anyone saw that stupid rag blurb about a "lovenest" Orli and I are shopping for in upstate New York, it's not true. I'm still in Connecticut, he's still in New York and we haven't even talked about a "lovenest" let alone shopped for one. Why do people want to assume we're already living together?

I know I shouldn't read this crap, but I can't help it. I'm obsessive.

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[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

It's okay. I just didn't want it to look like I wouldn't want kids with him.

Have you...lost a child?

[r-vecchio.livejournal.com]

Uh, yeah. My partner, uh Stella, she had a miscarriage four months ago... so I get what you're saying about Orlando. How's he coping?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear that, Ray.

He's coping as well as can be expected. I try to take his mind off everything for a little while but I know nothing really can. He wanted to be a dad so badly.

[r-vecchio.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I think I'm doin' better than Stella.

It's gonna take time, Will. I know that's a cliche but uh, take it from a man with experience. I think about it all the time and I didn't even think it was possible for me to concentrate on anything 24-7. But whenever you're doing something or with someone it's always there. But that doesn't mean that's Orlando's not... y'know, 'there' with you when you're together. I'm sure he appreciates your efforts.

Maybe he ... just wasn't meant to be a father with uh, whoever the chick was. Maybe his kid's meant to have two Pa's... or, you know what I mean.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I appreciate what you're saying, Ray. I feel really bad for the mother, too. She's lost her baby and her husband all at the same time. I can't imagine what that's like for her. I'm being really selfish by staying in the picture instead of letting them work things out without me around.

[r-vecchio.livejournal.com]

You're not being selfish, Will. You're showing you care and that's important.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I'm just worried that I'm not giving him enough space. My wife miscarried about a month after we were married and I know how much that upset me even though I wasn't quite sure I wanted it. But I guess if he didn't want me around, he'd tell me.

Sorry. I don't mean to be paranoid all over you.

[r-vecchio.livejournal.com]

Jesus, you lost a kid too? Is it an epidemic? God. I'm sorry, man.

He'd tell you. Definitely. Unless he's anything like Stella and silence is all you get. If he is, then I'd take the silence as 'stay the fuck away from me.' Excuse the language...

No problem, Will. You seem like a nice guy, I think we could be friends. Despite your bad taste in cars.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Thanks. For everything, for listening.

And just you wait until I take you for a ride in my Lexus. It'll change your mind. Er, not that I've bought it yet...

[r-vecchio.livejournal.com]

Any time, pal.

*laughs* I'll take your word for it. You play your cards right, and I may even let you sit behind the wheel of my new Riv. Uh, not that I've bought mine yet either... but still, something to look forward to...!

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

That sounds like a fair exchange!