Decisions

[porter_inc]

[locked from Kevin]

I'm leaving him. He called me today, told me why he doesn't trust me but that he refuses to let me go until he's ready for me to leave. When I said I didn't want to see him when he's angry, he threatened Wendell.

I know I've fucked up. I've given him reason not to trust me and while he might not know it for sure, I haven't been completely faithful to him. You know what's funny? When Kevin and I were first together, I never even noticed other men. I had no desire to be with anyone but him. But now... I won't say that Kevin made me do anything. He didn't. His behavior made it easier for me to let someone else in. I still feel guilty, though. And I'm going to keep feeling guilty until Kevin and I are officially over. It's my MO. I even felt guilty throughout my divorce proceedings.

I'm flying home to Seattle after I visit Mom and Peter. Kevin ordered me home the day after I see them and I'm going to comply because I'm very scared for Wendell. I'll go home, I'll play along. I don't know what he's got planned for me, but maybe if I humor him, he'll go to work as usual and then I can leave while he's gone. That's the plan, anyway. I'm just glad Orli's going with me. When I get home, I'll try to get hold of Sandy, too. If I'm leaving town, she should know.

Comments

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry, Will.

If you want some more support in Seattle, let me know. I have no problem flying out there to give you a hand with whatever you need for however long you need.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

God, I hate to pull you away, but... Strength in numbers, right? If you're sure you wouldn't mind...

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

You're not pulling me away, and I definitely don't mind. I'd rather be there helping out than here worrying about how your doing. Let me know your travel details and I'll see if I can arrange something on the same or if not, an earlier flight.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Okay, thanks. I appreciate that so much. If Kevin ends up not going to work for whatever reason, it might make it easier if someone else he knows is there when I tell him I'm leaving. I'm really hoping he'll be gone, but I'm determined to leave one way or the other.

I'll get you those travel plans.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear that you are determined to leave! Have you thought of a reason to tell him why you've brought friends home with you?

Great, thanks.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I haven't thought of anything. I can't think of a reason other than the truth.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

Nothing wrong with the truth.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Do you think I should see him alone first? It was just my thought that he wouldn't be defensive right away if it's just me.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

Honestly Will, I don't think it's a good idea. No matter how much you try to hide it, Kevin is going to notice something is wrong. If he's threatening Wendell, my thought is that he's already defensive.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I know, but... I don't want him to feel like he's being ganged up on. I think he's just really upset that I'm not with him and once he sees me, he'll be okay.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

I certainly hope your right.

At least keep your cell phone handy with someone's cell on speed dial so you can call for help if you need it.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Okay.

I have you and Orli in there and I'll keep the phone in my pocket.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

And Will, be careful! Don't do anything foolish.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I'll be careful. Thanks again for going out there for me. I really hope it'll end up being a wasted trip for you. *smiles*

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

No worries, and I really hope so too.

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

Hey you need me I can be out there Will.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Chase, I really appreciate that, and it means a lot to me. But I want you to take it easy and concentrate on yourself, okay?

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

I am taking it easy

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Kinda

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*raises an eyebrow*

Chase...

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

*perks a brow* Will?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Are you doing anything that would make Angel yell at you?

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

*chuckles*

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Uh huh. Spill it.

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

*innocent look* I'm being good

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*grins* Okay...

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

Now can I interest you in some prime real estate in the Florida swamps?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*smiles* Brat.

[wickedsinz.livejournal.com]

That's me. *smirks*

[sgc-spybarbie.livejournal.com]

*smiles softly*

I'm always game to visit the old haunts, Sig in tow. Let me know, okay?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I will, thanks so much, Shannon. I'm hoping things will go smoothly and I won't need to send in the cavalry. *smiles*

[sgc-spybarbie.livejournal.com]

Better safe than sorry, Will. Especially with some of the things you've been saying recently.

Makes a girl nervous.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I'm wondering what his reaction will be if he sees people he doesn't know. If he even sees anyone. In my perfect plan, he won't even be there when the friends show up.

[goddess-rainbow.livejournal.com]

Need a hand with anything?

Oh, if he hurts Wednell, I'll kick his arse! No, I will do more than that.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I don't think he'll hurt him as long as I go along. You know what would really help me out, though, and I just thought of this? I don't mind doing everything the boring way - flying out there, packing up, flying back - but I'd hate to stick Wendell on a plane. Once we're all set, would you be able to hold onto him until I make it back to Connecticut? I know he adores you and wouldn't be scared. I'd ask you to get Wendell out of there now, but Kevin would be suspicious and... I need to do this in person.

[goddess-rainbow.livejournal.com]

Oh of course. And Cellena and I would spoil him wrotten

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*smiles* Thanks so much. That'll be a weight off my mind.

[goddess-rainbow.livejournal.com]

Just let me know when.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I will. Definitely. Thank you so much, sweetie.

[goddess-rainbow.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Anything. Anytime. I mean that.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*hugs her tight*

[harlequin21.livejournal.com]

I shall be watching.
You can have three wishes.
Call them in when necessary.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much, Harlequin.