Gah

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I swear, I can't remember the last time I updated this thing. I was doing so well with writing every day and then I lost my job and ended up doing something crazy like getting a life where I don't have to be at my computer all day. I guess it helps that I've had things to do around here and I can be up with Kev and his crazy schedule. When Kev's not here, I've been writing, but I've been doing that in notebooks like I did as a kid. It's easier for me somehow and doesn't feel like work the way sitting at a computer does.

Anyway, the reason I had to write after all this time is because I've been propositioned.

Remember my mother's lesbians? Yeah, me neither. I mean, they were sweet and everything when I met them, but I kind of forgot about them once I got back to Seattle. Anyway, guess who they told my mom they'd like to be a sperm donor? I almost dropped the phone. And I haven't even thought about discussing it with Kevin yet.

Part of me thinks, "Aw, I can do so much to help them, and it'll be a real gift."

Part of me thinks, "Cool, I'll be a dad, and I won't have any of the responsibility that goes with it."

Part of me thinks, "Damn, I'll be a dad, and I might be expected to actually care."

I guess those last two are basically the same thought. Nothing's been discussed at this point. Mom said she was "floating the idea." I think I need to talk to the lesbians myself and see if it was really their idea or if Mom's just trying to pump a grandchild out of me by any means necessary.

Comments

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

She hasn't met Kevin yet has she?

*smiles* It's always good to hear that someone else likes your traits!

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

She hasn't, no. She spoke to him on the phone once, but the jury's still out about whether or not she likes him. She said he sounded cocky but sweet, so there you go.

And, yeah, I have to admit it's flattering that someone would want to breed with me, but I do need to find out all the details before I agree to anything.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

It's hard to tell much about a person over the phone, any plans on introducing them?

*nods* And a good lawyer is always helpful in that type of situation too, I would think.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I would love for Mom to fly out here and meet him. I'd like Peter to meet him, too. It's really important to me that they know what he's like and love him, too. Well, they don't have to love him, but you know what I mean.

Yeah, I'll get some names from Kevin if this looks like it'll happen. I'll have told him by then. *grins*

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*smiles and nods* Yeah, I do know what you mean. I'm sure they will - Kevin seems to be not only good to you but good for you.

It should be interesting to hear what he has to say about this. Have you guys talked at all about kids?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Kevin knows I don't want children, and he says the jury's still out for him. I guess we'll have to discuss it if the day comes when he decides he wants them.


ooc: hey, would you like me to set up a thread for Logan to visit them?

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*nods* No use worrying about it till the time comes, or even if it comes at all...

ooc: Yeah that would be great. =D Thanks.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Do you think you'll have kids one day?

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

To be honest I don't really know. One part of me would love to be a Dad; but another part... Well, I doubt if my lifestyle would ever change enough to accommodate a child.

*shrugs* Then again, I never thought I would get involved in a serious relationship again and now I find myself in New York just for the chance to be with someone special.

So really, I guess it's hard to say.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*nods* It's really hard to know what life will throw at you next. But how awesome when it's something good like someone special.

*grins*

So how're things going for you two? How's New York working out?

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*A nod and soft smile* Yeah, I definitely don't have any complaints.

*smiles* We're taking things slow - very slow, but I think that's working for us. I like the idea that we're taking the time to become friends first and the rest is just happening as it happens.

As for New York... *shrugs* It's New York I guess...

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Slow is very good, which might be weird for me to say since Kevin and I moved so quickly, but when slow feels right, then it's right.

*smiles* With New York, I think you either love it or hate it.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*small nod* I'd have to agree with you there. Every relationship is different and they all have their own pace.

It's not really the city that I dislike, it's more what the city represents or holds. *shrugs*

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

What does it represent to you?

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

I uh, I have a brother who lives in New York. We don't talk and it just makes things easier if there's no chance of running into each other.

But, New York is a big place right? We live in different boroughs so it shouldn't be a problem. ... Hopefully anyway.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow, that must be really tough. But, yeah, New York's pretty huge. It's hard finding people when you want to. You should be okay.

How long have you guys been estranged?

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

Almost three years. *shrugs and looks away*

Do you have any siblings Will?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*nods and decides not to pry*

I don't have any siblings, no. Though, for a few years, I was convinced that I was one of the Osmonds.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*sigh of relief at no further inquiry*

The Osmonds? As in Donny and Marie?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*grins* Yep. They always seemed so happy. I wanted to be in a family that looked happy all the time.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*laughs* I'm not sure I could have handled all the singing and dancing all the time.

*sobers* Unfortunately looks can be deceiving - not that I know all that much about the Osmond's or how happy they actually were. *small pause* Your Dad didn't make home life all that happy I take it?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I was a disappointment to him. He acted accordingly, yeah.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

*shakes head* I still think your Dad could have used a lesson or two in being a father.

Sorry, it's still not any of my business and I shouldn't disrespect the man, he was still your Dad.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

It's okay. You're not saying anything I haven't thought.

ooc

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

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