Gah

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I swear, I can't remember the last time I updated this thing. I was doing so well with writing every day and then I lost my job and ended up doing something crazy like getting a life where I don't have to be at my computer all day. I guess it helps that I've had things to do around here and I can be up with Kev and his crazy schedule. When Kev's not here, I've been writing, but I've been doing that in notebooks like I did as a kid. It's easier for me somehow and doesn't feel like work the way sitting at a computer does.

Anyway, the reason I had to write after all this time is because I've been propositioned.

Remember my mother's lesbians? Yeah, me neither. I mean, they were sweet and everything when I met them, but I kind of forgot about them once I got back to Seattle. Anyway, guess who they told my mom they'd like to be a sperm donor? I almost dropped the phone. And I haven't even thought about discussing it with Kevin yet.

Part of me thinks, "Aw, I can do so much to help them, and it'll be a real gift."

Part of me thinks, "Cool, I'll be a dad, and I won't have any of the responsibility that goes with it."

Part of me thinks, "Damn, I'll be a dad, and I might be expected to actually care."

I guess those last two are basically the same thought. Nothing's been discussed at this point. Mom said she was "floating the idea." I think I need to talk to the lesbians myself and see if it was really their idea or if Mom's just trying to pump a grandchild out of me by any means necessary.

Comments

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

That's what's giving me pause. They may say they don't expect me to be there for the kid now, but what if something happens later and I have to take care of it? I'd hope I'd be the absolute last resort if anything happened to them. I'm talking the "after the mailman and the accountant" type of last resort.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Honestly that's how you feel about it, then I wouldn't even bother being a donor at all. I mean if you have a kid out there, then you shouldn't ever feel an obligation to take care of them, or fear that you might one day have too.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I think there may be legal ways to ensure that doesn't happen. This is all speculation on my part. I'm pretty sure they only want a deposit and then it's bye Will. I'll call Mom later.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Okay.