I'm an asshole

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I don't know what the hell I was thinking. I broke down and told Mom about the woman who wrote me claiming to be the product of Tobias's first marriage. I showed her the letter, then she went into her room and hasn't come out since. The door's locked and when I knock on it, she just tells me she needs a moment alone.

I called Ann and Helene to come over, but they were both busy. I was going to call some of her other friends, but I don't know if they know about Dad's first marriage. So, I called Pete. He's on his way.

Update: She let Pete in there to talk to her, but he locked the door behind him. At least I know she'll be okay if he's in there with her, but what kind of damage have I done?

Comments

[lost-spiritus.livejournal.com]

Oh baby.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I feel so guilty.

[lost-spiritus.livejournal.com]

This isn't your fault, you hear me. *bundles him into her arms*

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

*leans into the embrace* How could I have thought this wouldn't hurt her?

[lost-spiritus.livejournal.com]

*Strokes his hair softly* Will, I met your mother, and I know she would have been hurt more had you not told her and she found out another way.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

I've been in this kind of a situation recently, and my mom actually reacted pretty much the exact same way when I told her my news, so I've been there. If you need to talk, let me know.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

How long did it take her to be okay? Or is she even okay? Maybe I should have waited to know for sure that the woman making the claim isn't some nut. I'm so stupid doing this so close to the holidays.

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

She's dealing, but it'll take her a bit of time to get used to the idea. You shouldn't worry too much about it though, mothers tend to be a lot tougher than they let on. Besides, it's better that you told her now, rather than having her find out in some other way.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I hadn't thought about that, but it does make sense. She'd have been really hurt if I kept everything from her. I guess I don't have any choice but to do a DNA test now. If the woman's a nut, no harm done? Maybe?

[lt-wes-janson.livejournal.com]

Maybe, but even if this woman isn't a nut, I'm sure that everything will work out for both you and your mom. She loves you, and nothing your dad ever did is going to change that fact.

[orlandomuse.livejournal.com]

Love, you aren't the asshole. Your father was. Give your mum some time.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Oh, baby, she looked so sad when I told her. I should have just done the DNA test like you said and then said something if it came back positive. But...I guess I was hoping she'd tell me if she really did know anything.

[orlandomuse.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry sweetheart. Is there anything I can do?

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

You could come up, if you wanted. But just knowing I can talk to you about this is helping a lot.

[aimlessbeck.livejournal.com]

None of this is your fault, Will; it's your dad's.

I don't really know...exactly what to say, because I've just been on the other side of things (I was the one trying to get in touch with my brother after he and his family had gone through their life not knowing about me). From what my brother told me, his mom reacted similarly when she found out. I think your mom just needs time. It's a big thing to really...get used to.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Oh man, I haven't even thought about what this lady must be thinking. I mean, if she's really family, she must be anxious to hear back from me.

What was it like to meet your brother? And how is his mother with you?

[aimlessbeck.livejournal.com]

She might be, yeah.

It was...confusing. Very confusing. He had thought his dad had been close to perfect (...kind of), so it was a big shock to him. DJ was very open, though, and that helped. And we looked a lot alike, I look like our dad, and our dad knew about me anyway, so there was no doubt about DJ and I being brothers.

His mother is very nice to me now, but it took a while to get there. At first she was hesitant about even talking to me at all, but it's understandable.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that she's nice to you now but that whole thing sounds like a hard adjustment for everyone involved.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

The only one hear who's an asshole is Tobias! Your Mom was going to find out sooner or later and sooner usually is better option. Give her some time. At least she's talking to Pete, I'd think that's a good sign.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

She's always had this strange relationship with him. Part son, part best friend. I'm grateful to him, but I wish she'd talk to me, too.

[logan-maxwell.livejournal.com]

Perhaps she will once she has a chance to sort things out a bit.

[twistmeup.livejournal.com]

Did yer ma know yer pa'd been married afore"

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Yeah, she did, but she doesn't really know anything more than that. She never asked and Dad never said anything.

[twistmeup.livejournal.com]

I think she'll git past it, Will and I think you done the right thing, tellin' 'er afore somebody else did.

[ex-will-port106.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Jack. I can't even imagine what it would have been like if she'd heard it from someone else.