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porter_inc) wrote2006-04-12 09:15 am
porter_inc) wrote2006-04-12 09:15 am
WED
So, Pete and I made up, and just when I think it's all good, I get a call from Mom on my cell, last night. She tried calling me at home, didn't get an answer, called my cell and found out I was at Kevin's place. Fair enough. But then she starts interrogating me about moving in with Kevin.
Apparently, Peter told her just how serious Kev and I are getting, mentioned that we're talking about moving in together, and how I feel about him. She doesn't think it's a good idea because she says I can't possibly know enough about him to justify being this serious about him. I told her we're just thinking about it (didn't tell her how seriously) and that she doesn't have to worry about me. THEN she tells me, "Well, sweetie, I don't think you should give up on Peter so quickly."
Excuse me? Peter and I decided, mutually, to be friends. We love one another but we know we can't be in a "real" relationship. I wish she'd stop, I really do.
BTW, she and her friend from that pub are chatting online all the time and she's thinking of flying out again to see him. But you don't see me judging her for doing that.
How come no one seems to think I can make my own damn decisions? After dinner at his friend's house, tonight, Kev and I are going to sit down and talk about this. About everything - my doubts, his doubts, everyone else's doubts, what exactly we want to do. Notice I said "we." That's all that matters.
For now, I don't know how to feel about Peter going to Mom about Kev. It was my news to share, and there's a part of me that feels as if he tattled on me. I know they're close. I know that they both miss me and that's why they hang out so much together, but, jesus, I feel ganged up on, sometimes.
I'll see how things go, tonight. If it's a disaster and his friends hate me, I'll take that as a sign.
Apparently, Peter told her just how serious Kev and I are getting, mentioned that we're talking about moving in together, and how I feel about him. She doesn't think it's a good idea because she says I can't possibly know enough about him to justify being this serious about him. I told her we're just thinking about it (didn't tell her how seriously) and that she doesn't have to worry about me. THEN she tells me, "Well, sweetie, I don't think you should give up on Peter so quickly."
Excuse me? Peter and I decided, mutually, to be friends. We love one another but we know we can't be in a "real" relationship. I wish she'd stop, I really do.
BTW, she and her friend from that pub are chatting online all the time and she's thinking of flying out again to see him. But you don't see me judging her for doing that.
How come no one seems to think I can make my own damn decisions? After dinner at his friend's house, tonight, Kev and I are going to sit down and talk about this. About everything - my doubts, his doubts, everyone else's doubts, what exactly we want to do. Notice I said "we." That's all that matters.
For now, I don't know how to feel about Peter going to Mom about Kev. It was my news to share, and there's a part of me that feels as if he tattled on me. I know they're close. I know that they both miss me and that's why they hang out so much together, but, jesus, I feel ganged up on, sometimes.
I'll see how things go, tonight. If it's a disaster and his friends hate me, I'll take that as a sign.