ext_246311 ([identity profile] orlandomuse.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] porter_inc 2006-12-28 03:25 am (UTC)

*sigh*

Jimmy was in a terrible car accident, and it affected his memory, as well as injuring him badly. While he was in hospital, I came to see him every day, and he fell in love with me. We'd known each other before, and I had a huge crush on him, but I don't think he was actually attracted to me.

But he was vulnerable, and I doted on him, every minute I could, even though I was dating Will by then too.

When he came out of the hospital, he moved into my office, which I converted into a bedroom. I slept there with him. We never did more than kiss, but I loved him. He loved me too.

After he got better, he went to see his father in England. (He was like me, in a different dimension) He promised he'd come back, and I promised I'd wait for him. I kissed him and sent him home.

But while he was gone, I was lonely, and I turned to Will more and more. I knew that Jimmy was a monogamous man. He would never tolerate me being with Will if I were going to be with him.

When he came back, he came to my door, and I told him to go away. I told him I loved Will, and that I didn't want him.

It was a lie. I did love him, but I was selfish, and I didn't want to give Will up. Frankly, I liked the sex too much, and Jimmy wasn't giving me that. So I broke his heart and sent him away.

Later, after Will, I wanted Jimmy back. I made an absolute fool of myself because he had someone else, but I refused to acknowledge it. I wanted him, and I was selfish enough to think he'd simply take me back.

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