Oh boy!

Jan. 15th, 2007 04:35 am
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ooc: Although Will's talking about the party in the past tense, it's still going strong. And he won't be doing a drunken striptease on a table because he's a good boy. Thanks to everyone who's playing! You guys are the best! :-)

First of all, I feel like I'm still recovering from the party and the, um, after party that sort of stretched into Sunday. It's the good kind of recovery that involves lying around with my superhotsexylover, basking in afterglow. I'm glad today's a holiday, though, even if we don't technically have to go to work.

Random thought... Ray told me that Cordy's party was the same day as Orli's even though her birthday's the 14th. I wonder if whoever threw it (I swear he told me, but my brain's fried at the mo) knew that today's a holiday so it could have technically been done on the actual day for her. Bummer. *gasp* Unless it was a conscious decision to have it a day early in a blatant attempt to steal Orlando's thunder!!! Mark my words!!! No one can steal his thunder because A) He's fabulous, B) He's amazing and C) It's secured by The Club.

Oh my god, before you send your cards and letters, I'm totally being sarcastic (except for the fabulous and amazing bits. Those are true and I'll get that statement notarized, thank you very much). My IQ's 145 above average. I can figure out that Saturday is the universally accepted best day for a partay. I'm actually feeling bad that the flowers were sent the day after her celebration.

[locked from Orli]
I'm pissed. Despite my best efforts, details about my baby's party still got leaked to the press (Mom called to tell me). It's embarrassing to have the estimates of what everything cost (you know how those tabloid shows do it) plastered all over the place. I guess it's better that it got out after the actual party, and that usually happens with secret celeb type things, but I still feel bad. Next year, beach party on some secluded island where cameras haven't even been invented. Good? Good.

On the agenda today...

I have no idea. I'm going to make breakfast right now (according to Will's law, my Boo's birthday weekend doesn't end until midnight), then see what he wants to do from there.

ETA: Maybe we should have a manly workout to prove my manly manliness and dispel the rumors that I'm a big ol' girl. Just a thought.
porter_inc: (happy man)

Today, my sweetheart, light of my life, sugar beet, sex object, future husband, best friend, cuddle bunny and really awesome workout partner turns 30.

*pays silent homage to whatever forces saw fit to create a perfect little bundle 30 years ago, thus making January 13th the best day ever*

While I may be older (and let's say wiser to humor me), you make me feel like a kid again. I'm so incredibly blessed to be with you.

To do list:

- Breakfast in bed
- Morning snuggle
- Call Corsicana and crack whip if necessary
- Lie to E! about party rumors
- Call to have birthday flowers delivered to Cordelia tomorrow
- Afternoon snuggle
- Get ready for "dinner"
- Get ready again because seeing Orli dressed up makes me hot and want him naked again
- PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!
- Party for two at Chez Bloom


I love you, Boo.

ooc: Orlando's surprise party can be found at [livejournal.com profile] wtgg. Come one, come all, etc. Membership is not required to post. Bendy time is in full effect.


Dec. 30th, 2006 01:44 am
porter_inc: (side)
Something's really bothering me.

[locked] )

I think I'm coming down with a cold. Just in time for New Year's Eve. Go me.


Nov. 4th, 2006 10:44 pm
porter_inc: (blue filter)
Not that many, really. I don't really keep photos - that's Mom's job. But I came across a few older pics and decided to post them along with some newer ones. I'm feeling weird, sort of nostalgic but hopeful. I'm really happy that Talia's getting married, but it feels weird. I guess I got used to her being angry and bitter and now she's being decent again. I really screwed her over but she's moving on now. It's great. But it's strange because every now and then I feel a little resentment towards her for not understanding my situation a little more. It's fleeting, but it's there.

That's what makes me worry about things now. As much as people have tried to make me feel bad for being so happy with Orli, I can't help it. He's everything I've ever wanted, and I want us to be together for a good long time. But do I deserve it after the way I treated Talia? And, to tell the truth, my first thought when I found out Orlando's wife was back from the dead wasn't "Oh, let me give him up so he can go work on his marriage." It was, "Hands off, he's mine now." See? Who does that? I'm so selfish! Karma's going to bite me in the ass.

Okay, I need to stop overthinking. It makes me nuts! I thought I was done with this!

Anyway, I felt the need to see my past and my future all in one place, so I killed a few minutes and posted these:

porter_inc: (cappucino heart)

I'm having a teeny bopper moment. On the outside, I'm cool as a cuke, but inside? There's squealing and possibly some cartwheels and/or bouncing.

He said he loves me.

I didn't push him to say it and I wasn't expecting him to say it, and I would have honestly been just as happy with him if he never said it. He's so wonderful at showing it and I feel so loved when we're together. Plus, experience has taught me that you can say anything you like, but if your actions don't back it up, the words are pretty hollow. So, no, I wasn't waiting for it like some desperate girl waiting for a proposal.

But - and here's where the teeny bopper thing comes in - when he did say it, I felt so happy, I wanted to squeal and call up everyone I know to tell them. In a way, it gave me the okay to stop holding back for fear of making him feel pressured by my own feelings for him. Does that make sense? It did when I was thinking it...

Anyway, that's where we stand. Two guys in love despite the fact that nobody thinks we should be.

Now I get nostalgic and cease being a "real" man (if I ever was one):
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Oct. 12th, 2006 07:03 pm
porter_inc: (cappucino)
[locked from everybody]

I feel horrible. I mean, I feel great about so much. But it makes me feel horrible. But not completely. Which is just confusing.

I'm free of Kevin, he'll be going to prison any day now, Orli's been completely cleared of any wrongdoing and so far nothing's leaked out about the shooting. Thank god. I'm so happy with him and I just know that Mom and Peter will come around soon. They'd better, anyway. Like Orli and I have both said, we don't know what the future will bring, but for now we're good together. Really good.

But I feel awful about what he's lost. His baby girl died and he never even got to see her. I remember when Talia lost the baby - or said she did, anyway. Before I started to suspect her, and even though I wasn't that crazy about having a kid, I was still really thrown for a loop when I knew for sure there wouldn't be a baby. Orli really wanted this little girl, so how much harder must that be? On top of it, he's getting divorced from the woman who also happens to be his best friend, so the person he probably would have turned to for the support only best friends can give isn't there.

And, god, I can't even begin to imagine how Cordelia's feeling. I don't know her, I've only seen pictures of her, but I can't stop thinking about her. She's lost her baby and her husband. I can speculate that maybe the marriage would have ended in a gentler way than it will, but the baby... I wish I could stop thinking about it. And it's not as if Hallmark makes a card for something like this. I have no right to send condolences, and honestly I don't even feel as if I have the right to feel awful for her. But I do. And it's not guilt that makes me wish things could have gone down differently. I just don't think anyone deserves to be hurt that much.

Maybe I could send flowers?


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