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porter_inc ([personal profile] porter_inc) wrote2007-02-20 03:45 am
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Sweetie stuff and no more private posting

I forgot to mention this the last time I posted (why can't I post every day the way I used to? Why do I feel so restless and disoriented all the time? I'm really starting to get sick of it. Maybe it's the meds I'm on. Except they make me feel nice and calm. So not sick of that. I should talk to David about it). It's only in the talking phase at the moment, but one of these days, Orli and I are going to get a house of our very own built.

I cannot wait. New house. New life. New beginning for the both of us.

Oh. And this is my first public post since I decided to make my journal friends only. It's not as if I'm spilling state secrets in this thing. If anyone (Kevin, for example) wants to comment or hassle me or comment in their journal about things I write in mine, who cares? I'm not scared of him anymore. I'm conflicted and wondering what I could have done differently, but I'm not scared. Anyway, huge kudos to my shrink for pointing out the fact that, while crazies may lurk and spy, they can only harm me if I let them. He also explained that my paranoia is perfectly reasonable since my life went from quiet and private to...not so much...in such a short period of time. Makes sense, right? I feel good. He talked me down. And it only took him a month to convince me that I can stop looking over my shoulder all the time (online)! I'm an open book. Always have been. I never wanted that to change. Thanks to the miracle of pharmaceuticals, it doesn't have to.

[identity profile] ex-will-port106.livejournal.com 2007-02-20 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
*laughs* You did! If I'd listened to you, I could have saved a lot of money. But I consider it my, "See what happens when you don't listen to Jackie?" fine.

[identity profile] and-you-love-me.livejournal.com 2007-02-20 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
See, and I wouldn't have even charged you any money!!!

[identity profile] ex-will-port106.livejournal.com 2007-02-20 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Now I know for next time. It's kind of nice knowing someone who'll call me on my bullshit.

[identity profile] ex-will-port106.livejournal.com 2007-02-20 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
*laughs* Then I'm really in good hands!

[identity profile] guitaraway.livejournal.com 2007-02-20 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Glad you're doing well, pal. *smiles*

[identity profile] guitaraway.livejournal.com 2007-02-20 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
You're welcome dude. How's Orli these days?

[identity profile] ex-will-port106.livejournal.com 2007-02-22 09:21 am (UTC)(link)
Still perfect! *smiles* He's doing well, thanks. What about Carlos?

[identity profile] guitaraway.livejournal.com 2007-02-22 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)

Still wonderful. Still my true love.

[identity profile] ex-will-port106.livejournal.com 2007-02-23 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
Then it sounds like all we saps in Sapville are doing just fine. *laughs*